Date : Sunday, June 28, 2009
Time : 10:21 PM
Title : Shocking truth.

i saw some posts from my friend,
i saw some shocking stuff, i totally lost trust to that friend.
so ya, i dont think i'll talk to her much anymore.


school's reopening like tomorrow.
&the fight between me& bestie is over.
hehe, i dont know what really happened, but it's over.
it's good news eh >.<
it's true that after a fight, people will be in better terms.(:
i dread going to school tomorrow eh T.T
never do any homework.

Labels: boy., i dont wanna be without you

Date : Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Time : 6:26 PM
Title : it's too late.

watched ghost of girlfriend's past with lovelies.(:
what a day.

lovelovelove you.(:

Date :
Time : 2:23 AM
Title : tattoo craving.

i so wanna go malaysia,then come back to singapore.
then get the extra one week holiday.
hahahs.

i wanna get a tattoo laaa.
kify jiejie done her fourth one alr.
lolol.

Date : Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Time : 1:30 AM
Title : Birthday wishes.

Date : Monday, June 22, 2009
Time : 1:09 PM
Title : shorter hair eh.(:

Date : Sunday, June 21, 2009
Time : 11:51 PM
Title : father's day.

Date : Friday, June 19, 2009
Time : 9:29 PM
Title : First pay!

Date : Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Time : 5:44 AM
Title : learning not to be scared.

hello,
im like updating early in the morning. -.-
only slept for like 3hours. T.T
was worrying about being late for work.
how bad can it go seh.

yesterday, went all the way to queenstown for visiting,
it's like a frigging longgg MRT trip.
from kallang all the way to queenstown.
then after reaching the place mama&i were suppose to visit,
headed to jurong to shop.
but when we've reached there, the frigging shopping center is under reconstruction.
it's like, wth.
then no choice walked around the neighborhood shops.-.-
after that went back to meet grandma for high tea,
went to the hawker near by, guess what.
only one frigging stall is opened. i was like =.=
but then nevermind, as long as there's food.(:

went home after that,
then kify came over with yumi as usual.
around 8pm, went down to walk the dogs & smoke break@LDF.
that place is spooky as usual, but then it has nice winds & all.
we were sitting there for a while, talking away.
all of a sudden,
kify was like carrying yumi, "can we go?" she said.
i knew something was wrong i pulled moto& carried paddington.
went off running. after leaving there, kify was like saying,
she saw someone running from the deaf association towards us,
standing behind jean, i freaked out seh. was like running home praying.
mentioning it now, gives me the goosebumps.
but kify says i cannot be scared, they will come to the people that are scared.
so, i must learn to be strong.
& i also must learn to not disturb mummy anymore,
it's will make me unclean, learn to not say vulgarities&smoke.
i must kick all these habits. i MUST.

GAMBATEH SUYI!!!
i have work @ 9 have to leave home by 8.
i still have time, i think.^^
SAYO!

Date : Sunday, June 14, 2009
Time : 11:42 AM
Title : high on alcohol.

yesterday. drank like one kind.
like finally cured the craving.(:
vanessadarling&joosheng came!
A BIG THANKS FOR JOOSHENG TREATING THE DRINKS.(:
i forgotten how much i drank, & the things that i did seems to so vague.
i think joosheng brought 8bottles of breezer&6bottles of vodka.
i swear raspberry Qvodka sucks like one kind.
had no choice but to finish it at one go, cos it's too disgusting to appreciate it.
the cola flavour one also sucked, so another bottle down.
loved the lime flavour breezer, took 2 bottles down.
then joosheng mixed vodka, tiger, lime,peach&orange.
then i drank it all up.(:
they were like screaming at me, lolol.
after finishing everything, when to skygarden to slack.(:
we were like screamming & everything. -.- too high alr.
then vanessa called tkw using my phone. -_-
like wth, lolol.
then went to hq2, pictures(:
& went home.^^

PICTURES!~~





this is not the exact amount of bottles.(:

Date : Friday, June 12, 2009
Time : 6:24 PM
Title : you & your lies.

Yeah (love is pain) dedicated to all my broken hearted people. One's old flame, just scream my name and I'm so sick of love songs. Yeah hate damn love songs. Memento of ours... Lies!

A late night and rain falling down. I bring you back from my memories. I promised myself I would be fine without you, but I can't help it. I take in liquor which I don't even know how to handle trying to fill my empty heart. A day without you is too long. I pray that I may please forget you (that's a lie).

Without you happiness cannot be found in me. I can't even shed any tears. I don't want to live anymore.

Yeah, this is my happy poopoo, it's pissing me off. I'm going crazy in thoughts of you. I want to see you, but I'm being told that I can't, that it's all over (I'll be right there).

I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I didn't know, but I know now that I need you. I'm so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I'm so sorry (I'm so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I'm so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

I dedicated my all into this song for you (other people probably don't know). By myself, without anyone knowing. (yeah, those words I said were lies). A loner left in the midst of it all. In my pocket is the breakup letter that's all wrinkled and folded up in my pocket, hey, (and my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are). I'm gonna change, I'll laugh everything off from now on.

I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I didn't know, but I know now that I need you. I'm so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I'm so sorry (I'm so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I'm so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

Oh oh oh oh oh, I hope this is all a dream. Oh oh oh oh oh, beacause I only add up to this much. Drop that babe, I still can't forget you. No I don't think I ever will, evne 'til the day I die, yeah. Did the scars I gave you heal? I'm sorry because I never got to do anything for you.

I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I didn't know, but I know now that I need you. I'm so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I'm so sorry (I'm so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I'm so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

Date :
Time : 6:03 PM
Title : A battlefield.

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like..

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for.

Date : Thursday, June 11, 2009
Time : 11:15 PM
Title : Struggling.

im like going crazy,
over some issues here and there,
feel like shutting myself up& not caring.
just feel so frustrated. i dont know why, it's just pissing me off.
every single little bit of it.it always happen during the june holidays.
how i wished i could work, so i can just think bout earning money.
not any of the issues im worrying now. head just feel so heavy.
dont know what's wrong with the world. even mapling has troubles.
fuck la. i just hate being with my father, i wonder why didnt i support divorce at that moment.
all i can think is dying. why am i such a loser that cant do anything right,
all i did was cry when something goes wrong, had been crying for 2 days.
felt so tired of it, but if something goes wrong again, i can only cry.
sighs. what kind of shitty life i have. shitty parent, caused all that.
whatever i want i cant get, either short of cash, or it's not allowed.
what is wrong seh, i just dont get it. every single thing is started by father.
i cant go against his means, i just cant. maybe im just a coward. i dont dare.
i dare not to break a great father's heart, i cant bear to not care his thoughts.
i he just have he way through to get into my head and hit my weakness.
the most fragile part of me, i just him that way. i wonder why cant he dont care and let me go.
maybe it's his frigging ego that's causing all that, but he's nice at times.
but most of the time he's bad.
im struggling hard to get the freedom i want, the kind of life i want.
it's so hard to be a girl. so many restrictions. so much that it's gonna suffocate me.
too much, there's a huge cage around me, locking me up. with all kind of shitty thing squeezed in the cage with me. making me feeling so terrible. i fucking hate life.

Date : Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Time : 11:44 PM
Title : So hot!

Yesterday, went bugis with kify& mummy.
im proud to say that, im kify's first Sister.(:

Today, SENTOSA!
finally got to soak in the sea water,
had that craving for dont know how long.
there's nothing much to say eh.(:
pictures.(:

Date : Monday, June 8, 2009
Time : 7:23 PM
Title : Emotional day.

went to malaysia today,
it's like last minute eh.
sua-ed lovely peepo. SO SORRY!

watch this video. funny eh.(:

Date :
Time : 12:32 AM
Title : Scared, pissed, sad.

i feel frigging scared currently.
i went to kify's place, accidentally kicked her house's god or smthg,
tht fell all over the place, i feel so bad.
im just feeling so awful now. i need rest.

Date : Saturday, June 6, 2009
Time : 12:06 PM
Title : screwed up job

CCB, father dont let me go work for my uncle.
i really dotn know what's his problem.
he say it's sia suay.
sia suay your head ah, cb.

Date : Thursday, June 4, 2009
Time : 11:41 PM
Title : Weirdest Headaches.

woke up late for work today. T.T
called uncle, he haven reach so i rushed there.
reach there, slacked my way through out.
so bored eh, i can even play RC there. -.-
stayed there till 6 plus, rushed home.
papa took home leave from hospital to see us,
so bo bian have to rush home.
reached home, felt so sick have no idea why.
so fell asleep, then woke up to check blogs,
after reading ivan's, called him. what a coincidence
he's in my territory. so went down to meet him.
in the end went riding with him and his gang to East Coast Park.
rode the whole night away.(:

Date : Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Time : 9:44 PM
Title : BiBo(ViVo) outing

Went to Vivo with lovely peepo today.(:
shopped like 3hours ++
dressing up brenda is like so fun eh.(:
around 5+ TKW came, yeehuay left.
then went up to PLAY WATER!
played like one kind, totally wet.
only one picture received, that is the last one.
already half wet. T.T

Date : Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Time : 10:18 PM
Title : The final farewell.

It's the last day of the funeral today.
where all the relatives sends my Grand Uncle the last journey.
the atmosphere was frigging saddening, most people were crying.
i was worrying bout some weird things that had always happened in my family.
when one of them go, there's another that will follow.
i was so worried that tears just came flowing.