honey baby

i'll stop using blogger.

2010-01-08T09:16:00.001+08:00

im getting annoyed blogging by blogger.
ask me for new link.

01012010

2010-01-01T12:25:00.004+08:00

2009 is over now,
looking back into 2009, lots of new occurrence.
starting life was hard, but slowly it became better,
making me enjoy my life more than ever.
new friends were made, true friends known.
so it's somehow a fruitful year.

survived the life of a retainer.
made new great friends like my baby.
strengthened friendship with my girlfriends,
misunderstandings were cleared.

farewell 2009, xoxo. 20092009.

resolutions for 2010.

be a good girl, quit smoking.
scored well for O's
get paddington home
Lose weight!

the start of 2010, is fun really fun night with girlfriends accompanied by fireworks,vodka,craziness.

aww.

2009-12-28T08:26:00.001+08:00

my poor paddington, have to keep shifting house this few days.
boohoo, i wanna bring her back and live at my house la.
im sad.

Christmas eve.

2009-12-24T22:18:00.003+08:00

DOG! haha.
i cant stop calling my dogs "DOG!" these days, when they have a name.
haha. and my blog is dying. lol.
im currently real busy with my new aquarium, changing a fresh water aquarium to salt water aquarium.
cos, my 3 year old arowna just passed on. boohoo.

rot.

2009-12-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

im rotting at home 123465789days, alr.
im dying soon.

mood swings,

2009-12-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

there's nothing much to say,
i just get pissed off so easily.

family night.

2009-12-10T08:38:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was Mummy's birthday
went to eat at Nihon Mura, it's like a 'tradition' alr, cos all of our birthdays we go there.
then headed to teoheng, had a great night out with the family, teehee:B
daddy danced tango, mummy sang. (:

then, the pups learned how to walk alr,
frigging cute la. short short legs, blur blur look. haha.
my fish tank changed a look, looks dam it nice. will upload pictures soon.

loves,xoxo

Homey life.

2009-12-03T12:26:00.002+08:00

im like staying at home for the past few weeks, never went out.
im like lost to the society alr. i miss slacking all over the place, i miss going out after work. i miss the feeling of having money. lol.

i hate you

2009-12-01T01:14:00.002+08:00

i hate this feeling, i hate it so much.

take a breath.

2009-11-27T22:52:00.001+08:00

i sick and tired of your lies.

This is stupid, im not stupid.
Dont talk to me like im stupid.

Kitty Lab!

2009-11-24T01:02:00.004+08:00

Went to Kitty Lab!
ok, wasnt as enjoyable, cause didnt go with friends.
im like dam lazy to type any details.-.-
went there is just plainly simple games, but all not seen in any singapore arcade.
and, i've got the GOOD CITIZEN BADGE. by completing all the stations in 35mins.
Not much of an accomplishment anyway. lolol.

Dream on.

2009-11-21T22:54:00.002+08:00

a wrong step in life, a regret forever.
im sad, im crying. i wanted that badly.
i still remember us discussing about it 2years back.
but im no longer in the plan.):

Ugly truth.

2009-11-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

Family gathering on the 14th got to know lots of ugly truth eh,
it's a fruitful gathering eh, hehe.
ton-ed the whole night, slept the whole day the next day.
got my baby moto back to Kallang Airport. ♥
was sick the whole day from then on.
Yesterday couldnt getting my memory card read by the Computer,
was dam it pekchek. so updating now. hehe.
Oh god, lucky's having a hard time now, help please.
i dont want any dead pups. ):

Expecting 18th nov & 25th nov! muahahhaa

i miss you.

2009-11-12T00:12:00.002+08:00

i miss holding you i my arms,
i miss you waiting at the door step for me to reach home.
i miss the way you welcome me home,
i miss the way we played the staring game,
i miss the way you barked,
i miss you being so obedient when im around.
i miss your presence.):

happy birthday Cassan(:

2009-11-11T10:33:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went out to celebrate cassan's birthday,
but i left early eh. i lost ying's shirt, so sorry. ):

Su: haha, he just called not long ago. teehee:B
sharleen:haha, just nvr go lo.(:
Jinjie: hehe, baby!
JoceKristephor♥: love your's too.(:

hehe

2009-11-10T11:03:00.003+08:00

Teehee:B
omg, he dam it cute la, thou he's like really guailan to us students.
but then he's hard to resist eh. so cute la, plus chew tell me say he has a tattoo,i start to think more of him, ohhhhh. hehehe, im crazy i know. hah.
he call me just a few minutes ago, as i didnt go school. 0.o
if he'll call everyday, i'll dont go school everyday sia. hahaha.
lolol, i sound like some maniac. -.-
oh okay, i owe him 3 parents letter. shall slowly pass to him, teehee:B

happy?

2009-11-09T21:55:00.002+08:00

Im tired& unhappy.

Oh god, these things still happen!

2009-11-08T18:07:00.000+08:00

Papa just told me about a story of his friend, after hearing the story, the Goosebumps just can’t go away, and it’s been like 1hour since he said the story.
The story goes like this,
his friend & the wife. let name them husband and wife.
Husband&wife went to Thailand as tourists,
so they went shopping, as they are shopping for clothes, the wife goes into the fitting room to try on the clothes, & then husband waits outside. After 20mins, the wife still haven comes out of the fitting room. The husband starts to get anxious and asks the sales girl to open the fitting room. When the husband kicked the door open, the wife is gone.
The husband reported to the police, & the investigation starts. First, the the police got CCTV out to check whether the wife left the fitting room within the time. But the CCTV shows the wife going in to the fitting room & the husband standing outside waiting all the way. After much investigation, the police assume the wife is missing& dead, and then sends the husband back to Singapore.
After the husband got back to Singapore, the relatives started gossiping about the husband selling the wife away, as they quarreled before going to Thailand. Insurance company assumed that the wife is dead, but the husband continued believing that his wife isn't dead until he sees the corpse. So the Insurance wasn't claimed. & the husband lived on that way.
After Five years, the husband's Sister-in-law lets name her aunt.
she went to Thailand to tour as well, & walked passed this really peculiar stall on the streets,
crippled beggars were locked up in cubicles separated by bamboo, labels saying that the beggars were so sick that their limbs have to be amputated & lost their ability to speak, & they are begging the tourists passer by to donate money so that their illness can be cured. The aunt went in seeing the beggars in that state, sympathized with them & donated a certain amount of money to one of a female beggar. When the female beggar looked at the aunt, she started struggling despite being in that uncomfortable&pathetic state. Aunt feels weird and thinks that why; the female beggar struggled when she looked at her. so aunt left the stall, after seeing such a weird thing, the female beggar despite not having limbs, used all her strength moved to the screen & bangs her head on the bamboo bars, to have the aunt's attention. Then aunt overheard the guard there saying:” tomorrow that woman cannot be here already". So the aunt starts to ponder why, the beggars are locked up? Why the women will have such a reaction?
So the aunt gave the guard money telling them to let her see the women. Seeing the money, the guards let her see the women. So the aunt started asking the women, “do you know me?" the women nods her head in tears, then ask her” do you have something to tell me?" she nodded. & aunt look at the women clearly, started to feel some familiarity to the women & called the husband saying:" hey I think I saw someone very alike to your wife, come over to Thailand now." The husband got the message, instructed the aunt to contact certain people & informed the police. The police came & protected the women not letting the guard to bring her away
The husband got to Thailand, went to meet up with the aunt upon seeing the women, he just went straight to see the women's chest. As the wife has a unique birth mark there, there's the mark! The husband berserk started beating everyone he sees in the stall. After much investigation&paper work, the wife was brought back to Singapore, without her limbs, voice.
Till today, she’s still eccentric, she sees no one except for her husband.

See, such things still happen today, in this society.
It’s super scary to me, but I don’t know how it is to you people.

hello bitch.

2009-11-06T00:06:00.003+08:00

i really hope that you read this, i swear.
dont think that you deleted me on facebook, then i cannot view you. haha you're so wrong.
lets see, shame? you say that it's a shame that i call you a friend.
hmms, lets see which is more shameful?
a bitch that goes around fucking guys after knowing him a few weeks, & she already has a boyfriend. when her friends knows that she's with the guy, she claims that she already broke off with the boyfriend. that is one.
secondly, not knowing the facts right & pushes the blame to a friend that she's the one that betrayed her. when her friend is experiencing blames from her mother&sister bout trusting the bitch.
the bitch claims that her friend betrayed her when her friend trusted her till the end, even when the lies were known at the end of the day. a birthday wish, was true from her friend, she claims that is being hypocritical. so what about the birthday wish the bitch gave to her friend? After giving her shits on her birthday, then she remembered that it's her birthday. Did her friend say anything? she didnt, she wanted to make things clear, but then bitch is just too obsessed by the fact that she has to get her boyfriend back to her even when her facade of lies is being seen by the boyfriend. the bitch cries at the boyfriend's door to get him back, but what? the boyfriend feels that it's too disgusting to have her back. though she pester him for weeks, but she counldnt have him back, so she turned back to the guy. which is a really stupid guy, after being cheated over and over again, he still went back to her.
SO WHICH IS MORE SHAMEFUL? the BITCH calling her friend a friend, or the friend calling the bitch a friend?

HAHA, even the stupid guy deleted us from facebook, it is super hilarious. dont want us to see the shame? haha

hellloooo.

2009-11-05T11:14:00.002+08:00

gna keep memories in this blog, so i gna try my best to type more.
this few days i have been thinking alot, so much that i cant count.
im starting to think about, what are desires?
am i gonna live on with desires as a motivation?
i dont know, from what i know up till now, i have been living for my desires,
wanting him, studying for better grades than others, following the fashion, buying new phones.
all these are all desires, i keep trying to reach out what i cant get,
at the end of the day, im just a loser to such desires,
i couldn't get contented with what i have, i got this, i will want that too.
it's like i dont know how to control what i want,
started to agree with"human beings are selfish & greedy creatures"
i just cant stop wanting things, i just want almost everything to myself,
getting jealous of people that have the things i cant have, what's going on.
why cant i be contented with what i have? i already have more than some has.

life?

2009-11-04T18:50:00.001+08:00

tired,

going crazy.

2009-11-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

life has been boring, my mind kept running wild.
the thoughts&emotions that had been kept inside for very long just came out, by it's own will.
im going crazy with all those thoughts.
why dont i have the courage to tell him, why?
all im doing now is read his emo post on his status on facebook.
read his sad pm. but, what can i do, im not his her. all he wants is her.
so there's nothing i can do eh. all i can do is stand by and watch.
thou it hurts watching him being like that. it hurts alot, want to talk to him, but i dont want him to think that im irritating. all i can do is watch.
now listening to his favorite songs, all i can do is think of him.
i cant do anything, not a little bit.

G-D Cheers me up.(:

2009-10-27T15:04:00.001+08:00

SO CUTE LA!♥

teehee:B

2009-10-26T12:03:00.002+08:00

PEACEOUT.(:

Sentosa, late post. (:

2009-10-21T18:43:00.001+08:00

Late post for Monday,
suntan-ed . teehee:B
now im like tanned, love the tan.
YAY! im gonna get up smoothly! muahahha.

living my life.

2009-10-19T07:31:00.003+08:00

hellooo, didnt update regularly,
due to my brother's aggressive possession of the computer.
woke up early to snatch the computer! hahah.
currently thinking what sandwiches should i make?
haha, cant wait for later!

Reply of tags.
jeann: teehee:B
Jinjie: i loveee you!! dont care that JoceKristephor her pattern is like that one. hahah
JoceKristephor♥:okok, i love you to the max. your No.1 okay. not like you put me 3rd. Heartbreaker. boohoo.

just a few more hours to get over.

2009-10-16T05:43:00.002+08:00

yesterday, it's the 6th year of ahgong's death.
went up to ah ma house. good thing that i was in time.
i almost couldnt make it to burn the"papers"
lol, yesterday's punishment is like. -.-
i have no comments ehh. lol.

it's the last paper BIOLOGY today.
omgomgomg. so fast huh? gonna play the hell out after this.
but then im sure that the teachers wont stop teaching for a while. T.T
Jiayou!:D

Can you hear me?

2009-10-12T20:24:00.002+08:00

It's coming four years, the feelings i had for him.
i wonder why do i still feel this way, even now when we dont talk, hangout like before.
but just one smile from from him can simply brighten up my spirits,
i'll be hyper for the whole day. sighs, wtf is wrong.

school was fun eh, slacking everyday, afternoon will be with ram studying.
im starting to feel like a outsider at home.

Do faeries exist?

2009-10-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

Do faeries exist?
if they really do, i wanna make wishes,
i wish, life wasnt that tough,
i wish, i do not have to see everyone getting hurt.
i wish, heart breaks wont hurt.
i wish, exam werent important.
i wish, there's no such thing called stress,money&life.
& the list goes on.

today, after work, studied the hell out.
had a long talk about life with ram&anson.
we're all getting stressed, over life.
i just hate to be living.
Life is a Punishment, a Beautiful Struggle.

I♥Suyi

2009-10-05T18:10:00.003+08:00

Sighs, im in real bad mood now.
my bicycle got scammed,
dam sad la, boohoooo.
i know some might think that it's only a bike no big deal.
but it really meant alot for me. ):

school was kinda entertaining today.
i receive 3 I♥Suyi stickers, teehee:B
i wanna receive moree! hahha.

EOY

2009-10-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

The exams are here already!

school(:

2009-09-30T22:24:00.002+08:00

In Picture:BrendaTan,SuyiJoleno.(:
taken with OMJ's LG phone inner cam.
like dam wth, i swore not to get a LG phone but, this phone's camera is tempting me.

kept rushing for school these 2 days,
like dam wth,
today, it was kinda a 'gossip all the way' day.
we kept talking bout certain people with a sudden change of actions. 0.o
kept asking people's opinion & all, this couple is frigging suspicious la.
tsktsktsk. talked to a number of teacher about sleeping in class,
sighs, i just dont know why i'll just fall asleep in class ehh. T.T
will try my best!
i wanna graduate with my lovelys, i dont wanna suffer the same agony now.(:

2009-09-29T20:10:00.001+08:00

bored.

2009-09-28T09:59:00.003+08:00

never go to school today, like again?
so bored luhh. -.-
my restaurant city is getting on my nerves,
the rating kept fall to like 4? then no customer one.
so -.-
ok whatever.
trying to study maths, but it just dont get into my head.

lolol, i just browsed last year's blog& tag board.
how cool, the spammers and all. -.-
it's been like one year since all that crap happened.
sighs, time flies eh.

me against the world.

2009-09-27T09:42:00.003+08:00

what is life seriously, is it about money,love,kinship,friendship.
all these are source of pain more than happiness,
i kept thinking, did i really feel happy before?
that answer is no, now even a smile feels so fake for me.
like i myself can feel how fake the smile is,
the laughter , is only for that moment. i dont feel happy anymore.

.

2009-09-26T08:28:00.000+08:00

Choices.

2009-09-23T14:55:00.002+08:00

fuck la, dont know whether is it a good choice not.
just go school tmr to find out.
Girl, it's none of your business about me going home after being late for the second time, dont comment on me kay. i dont wanna have any thing to do with you, i'd be wasting my time.

Not happy.

2009-09-22T21:15:00.003+08:00

i have no idea why i feel this way,
i may have fun&laughter.
but deep down inside i dont feel happy at all.
in class i'll be the one that's laughing the loudest.
but deep down inside im tearing, cry.
i have no idea why it's this way. i dont like this feeling.
i hate it.

KEEP TELLING MYSELF.

Gary's 19th birthday.18092009

2009-09-21T11:42:00.001+08:00

on Friday, met up with yawhui,
headed to gary's chalet.
had sucha nice gathering, there isnt any weird feeling bout me not fitting in.
so it's FUN. Play blackjack, Drank Martell. no one went down, except for agnes&gary.
hahha, so fun. come to think of the dare part, we laughed like nobody's business.
Teehee:B i just love chalets so much!

my favourite picture. teehee:B

simple sweet16

2009-09-20T10:53:00.002+08:00

after the clock struck midnight, i was still watching vanhelsing on channel 5.
i got too engrossed on watching that show, that i never noticed bout my phone.
then after the show, picked up my phone.
Hey, birthday messages! i was smiling to myself while reading them.(:
i didnt know there were people remembering my birthday.
but then i love the message that ying sent me the most,(:
went down to meet her right after the show,
then sat down there smoke&chatted away.
then Jordan came by his car, getting off the car with a plastic bag with a red bottle in the bag, i kept looking, then he was like "happy birthday suyi.(:" then he pass me the bag, i was like "hey! the raspberry vodka you owed me." muahahha. 'Girls' talk throughout the night, drank half bottle away.woke up in the morning had slight headache, as i have been drinking for 3days straight. -.-
then the morning mood was spoiled by daddy, but in the evening everything got better.
night time, VANESSALOVE came! we were slacking&talking, everything was calm. till ying came giving us weird false alarms, taht made us run up& down the stairs, EYEERR.
the night was long, i can say.(:

It's just a very simple sixteen birthday celebration.
im already contented.(:
THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES.♥

depression

2009-09-18T18:45:00.004+08:00

after school headed to cathay, with jj,brenda&kw
they bought Newurbanmale stuff, the newurbanmale worker i swear is dam it cute la.
then head to have lunch, jinjie&me were like crazy girl singing away. lol.
made the atmosphere better eh.(:
so fun!(: thanks kw, for listening to my crap.(:
yawhui is gonna scream at me, im soo late. (:

Super junior M!

2009-09-17T15:31:00.002+08:00

omgomg,this Super junior M sings cheena song. lol.
dam cool la,(:

my favorite songss. thou this vid quite long ago one alr.
love this version.(:

i miss ahgong

2009-09-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

today it's ahgong's birthday,
i still remember thou it's been so long that he's gone.
so long ago,but i can still feel him alive somewhere,somehow inside.
yesterday, played mahjong thru the night, then went to school in the morning.
slept like pig throughout the classes, ><
reach home still sleep, then watched MJ performance, & met up with ying.

it's difficult for me to smile now.
peace.

im tired.

2009-09-15T20:38:00.002+08:00

Today, i was almost late for school but made it on time.
first period, the physics test got me, i dont even know the test existed.
chinese lesson, i almost rot. then suddenly, cbs came to call me.
got called down to DM's for the lamest reason, it's ong again.
good thing that vernon was sucha nice person, nthg much happened.
& Ong was scared of Chewbs. haha.
class was reall boring, all i can say.

summary

played the craziest truth with chew,cashew,jeremy&jx
ate @ KFC with papa&mama
quarrel with papa.
Frigging pissed off.

last day of busy holiday

2009-09-13T22:22:00.003+08:00

overdue pictures.(:

Stayed at home the whole day.
Enjoyed the peace, teehee:B
mood got better already, but still love the blackness.
Shall stay emo for a little longer,
My laziness getting from bad to worst
Wanna get back to work, getting short of cash.

boredom

2009-09-13T02:31:00.002+08:00

went to aunt's house, almost died of boredom.
Cant stand it, went to TM
Bought pencil case,ribbon,dog collar.
Found out that i've been spending too much.

trying to stop my shopping craz.
my mood swing is getting from bad to worst.
adjusted blogskin to match my mood.
getting real tired of living, & i shall stop eat broccoli.

110909

2009-09-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

Chinese Oral, Screwed it.
Birthday celebration to my younger sister, didnt enjoy at all.
Forced to go bugis again, half asleep throughout.
Bought new bag&shirt. (:
Papa had the blackest face throughout the dinner.
did henna @ Geylang Serai.
Reach home prepared to go pub, then sister ask me dont go.
felt really disheartened, as if im not important at all.
SHE FORGOTTEN ABOUT ME AGAIN, she always do.

Fucked up day, cb.

emptied wallet.

2009-09-10T21:24:00.003+08:00

helloooo,
woke up early today, have no idea why i did that too.
treat mama eat breakfast, then went out for movies with kw.
watched the time traveler's wife.
it's kinda nice, the wife was like really nice to tolerate all those thing.
some parts were really funny. LOLOL.
after watching, went to meet mummy.
shopped for birthday presents.(:
the bus-d home.
home sweet home.(:

sun tanned.

2009-09-09T20:21:00.005+08:00

woke up late today.
so didnt go for the SB trip.
sorry to pangseh certain peepo.
instead went to sentosa, suntanned,
after sentosa, ran into so many peepo sia.
seriously, alot of peepo go vivo today.
& when ying saw me she was like "why you maciam roasted pig"
lol. im like frigging sun burnt, red face, my back everything chao ta sia.
i got the most tan, among all of them. haha.

EDITED
ivan keep asking me to post this picture.
cos must show his minjun. -.-
Peace.(:

memories.

2009-09-09T00:19:00.003+08:00

went to work as usual today,
work was exceptionally slack today,^^
after work met up with hacken&ram.
slacked awhile, & then went home.
we talked so much,
but it ws nothing like the past,
all we talked now is gangster & breast. -.-

2009-09-07T23:40:00.001+08:00

Gee,gee,gee,gee. Baby,baby,BABO!

2009-09-07T23:31:00.002+08:00

Music:Gee
Artist:Girls Generation.

Aha,
Listen boy! My first love story.
My Angel and My Girls
My sunshine
Oh! Oh! let's go!

Don’t you know boy? You are so handsome! When you walk past me, my heart skips a beat
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
Oh I feel so embarrassed when I look right at you. You just smile and walk right on past
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
What do I do? (What on earth do I do?) My heart trembles (At the sight of you)
(Just your one smile) It pulls me right up and puts me on the highest cloud

I guess I’m just a fool
With only my eyes for you
Babo Oh, what else can I do?

Chorus
Tell me to stop thinking about you baby, no no no no no
Tell me who could take their eyes off you Oh oh oh oh oh
My eyes look at you, my body trembles gee gee gee gee gee
It’s your eyes that (oh yeah) make me love you (oh yeah yeah yeah)

Second Verse
Oh so so pretty, your heart is so pretty. I was captured from the first glance
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
I can't touch it because it's so hot. I'm engulfed by love's fire
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby
What do I do? (What is there to do?) Cause I’m shy (Why so shy?)
(No no no no no) I don’t know why but everyday I long for just you

My close friends will just tell me
That I’m really a hopeless fool
Babo, but as I look at you

Chorus
Tell me to stop thinking about you baby, no no no no no
Tell me who could take their eyes off you Oh oh oh oh oh
My eyes look at you, my body trembles gee gee gee gee gee
It’s your eyes that (oh yeah) make me love you (oh yeah yeah yeah)

Bridge
My mouth is shut tight
I can’t say my true feelings for you
I ask where is my courage?
What would be the right thing to do?
My heart is already anxious when I look at you

Chorus
Tell me to stop thinking about you baby, no no no no no
Tell me who could take their eyes off you Oh oh oh oh oh
My eyes look at you, my body trembles gee gee gee gee gee
It’s your eyes that (oh yeah) make me love you (oh yeah yeah yeah)
Chorus
Tell me to stop thinking about you baby, no no no no no
Tell me who could take their eyes off you Oh oh oh oh oh
My eyes look at you, my body trembles gee gee gee gee gee
It’s your eyes that (oh yeah) make me love you (oh yeah yeah yeah)

sweetness.

2009-09-04T19:46:00.002+08:00

hehehe, im into manga craz again. (:

just here to wish a few people happy birthday.
i heading to xiaogui's birthday chalet& 3e3's class chalet.(:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ERICSSON CHAN RUIYONG, ♥cashew
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIAOGUI.(:

cross country (310809)

2009-09-02T18:31:00.003+08:00

sharing some pictures taken at cross country,(:

meeting van.

2009-09-01T09:53:00.002+08:00

yesterday, was really bored in the night,
asked vanessa out, i missed her.(:
went slacking, & met up heihei&keke. missed them also.
so cute lo, botak one. hehe

pissed.

2009-08-30T02:34:00.001+08:00

ok, whatever la.
i dont know i just cannot stand the way you do things.
like seriously, why cant you live without a guy.

too many times i've had to start all over again.

2009-08-26T18:42:00.002+08:00

In picture: Jeremy foo, Benson.
Photography by: Ericsson chan.(Cashew)

hello,hello,hello!
this is the second day that i never go school.(:
guess why?
my youngest sister caught H1N1 virus,
so i self quarantined, i dont wanna pass any virus to the lovelys.
should be going back to school tomorrow.
& seriously i dont think H1N1 is a big deal, i see my sister as jumpy,when she's a confirm case. -.-
she recovered from just a 3days MC, how lame is that like seriously.
this 2 days, im just killing time by using the computer&sleeping.
seriously, i still wake up early in the morning like 6plus,
got ready for school then noticed my sister still at home, then i knew i had to stay at home.
sorry, tingting i told you that im going school today, then i couldnt make it.
so, i'll stop here,
have to do some self study to catch up.(:

bye, loves.

YESTERDAY@TEOHENG

2009-08-23T12:04:00.005+08:00

it was frigging funnn laaa.
haha, thinking about it makes me laugh again.
all those very old oldies. that are as old as me. -.-
寶貝對不起,失戀陣線聯盟
danced like crazy people, frigging high eh
haha. i actually was hesitating about going,
but it's a good choice made, ^^
we made quite number of vids,
one is "sorry,sorry" by super junior,& the usual nobody.
the reason is that, we're tooo cold!
vids to share!

2009-08-22T09:14:00.000+08:00

Loves this MTV, love the meaning eh.(:

high in temperature.

2009-08-21T18:58:00.002+08:00

hello people.
im like dying now.
it's the second day of the lunar seventh month.
my body temperature is running high,
what is this? bad luck?
then im 100% sure that he loves her alot,
thou she has a bf. what is this?

just a glance

2009-08-19T17:13:00.001+08:00

LOL, i cant believe i will still want you.
just a glance of your picture just made me smile.
after what you did.

imy.

2009-08-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

peace.

2009-08-16T18:50:00.002+08:00

i want this peace forever,
it's okay that people dont contact me.
but i like life this 2 days,
it's just me,family&my dogs.
all these are the main outline of my life,
FRIENDS BRINGS IN THE COLOR, Good&Bad.

2009-08-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

I ♥ BIGBANG!!!

fixed her computer herself.(:

2009-08-13T19:36:00.002+08:00

internet was down for the pass few days,
& gladly on the common test week.
it was starhub's fault partially,
then i found out that, the wires of my router got burnt,
then i linked the wires back!(:
i thought it would not work, but now it's working perfectly fine,(:
haha, what a accomplishment.(:

omgomg, he added me!.(:

going hawker to meet up with people.
♥bye.

i ♥ PADDINGTON

2009-08-08T18:06:00.002+08:00

whole day at home, trying to get over my headache,
after having sucha bad hangover. -.-
just feel like posting bout my paddington!(:
the picture, is like the above one is 2 months ago,
the one with the ribbon is just taken today. hahha
so cute eh.
then is the similarity of my lucky and the only black pup.
just look at them so cuteee, eh.(:

school.

2009-08-04T19:24:00.002+08:00

BIGBANGGGG!♥
im going school tmr for the poster!!!

i've been spending so much money these days,
huge hole in the pocket. cab to school, cab to school.
sighs, economy is bad, gonna work my life out during holidays.
no money buy what i need & had been over spending.

school today was draining my life out, but it gets more&more interesting
after recess, i'll remember what cashew did for life, i swear.
it's frigging disgusting la, didnt know guys are that scary until now.
i feel so bad for that person, she's nice to me eh.
reached home slept like pig, wanna slack!

Every second counts 'cause there's no second try

2009-08-03T20:29:00.002+08:00

i wonder what's going around me,
it was peaceful awhile ago, now the waves are starting again.
i dont know what's wrong,
i couldn't bring myself to go school.
the feeling of isolating myself is too strong,
i wanna be alone, and keep the hear of mine safe.
it just healed not long ago, i dont want to get injured or sick again.
im tired of healing my wounds, it hurt so much, so badly.
i wanna say goodbye to yesterday, i wanna throw everything away.
but it has already left me so many scars some are already like tattoo, gonna be there forever.
dont ask me what happen, nothing happen. i just sense impending doom, bad things are gonna happen real soon, im just hiding, running away from reality.
i dont wanna do anything wrong in life, cause' there's no second try.

im just being careful

tired.

2009-08-02T10:51:00.001+08:00

it's just a sudden thought,
im tired of living,
i dont know why,
just tired, nothing bothers me anymore,
nothing matters anymore,
it's just pure tiredness.

last night.

2009-07-31T07:57:00.001+08:00

first time riding a bike.
it's friggin fun la, but wasn't exciting,
the guy didnt dare to PLAY. T.T

didnt attend school due to the first day cramps.
sighs, 3 days alr, nvr go school.

wanted it badly.

2009-07-30T17:24:00.003+08:00

helloo.
accompanied ying to peninsular for her tattoo with nic&kify.
for that picture, i know im frigging short compared to nic,
& i look somehow macho. -.-
i wanted to have one yesterday, due to somebody around,
it's wasn't possible.
i really want onee.

today, school.
sucked like one kind can.
thanks to madam kaur,
spoiled my day.
im gonna serve detention that's it.
went to Plaza sing just to eat KFC today,
sighs, bandito is sucha disappointment,
spent my precious time&money eating that.
walked all over PS, then headed home.
hahha, home sweet home.

&Im feeling empty, as im out of it.

Super high.

2009-07-27T12:40:00.003+08:00

these two days, kept staying out late.
no energy to wake up in the morning, woke up at 9.30 today.
sorry lovely & tingting, despite you girl asking me to go school,
i failed to go. SORRY.

the day before yesterday,
mahjong-ed till early morning.
yesterday, stayed out till late,
slept at 2 i think. so, i woke up late.
& i wasn't myself for that 2 days,
due to embarrassing things happened.

then now im in the anime craz state again.
the story is so close to mine, made me feel so emotional eh.
but they ended up together, mine is not getting any where.

MICHEAL JACKSON PERFORMANCE.
Sharing with you guys, i love this performance of his.(:
i watched this from my father's micheal jackson collection,
just liked this performance the most.(:
sighs, people with a glamorous life, wont live long.
while watching, it's suddenly struck me, he's like this once,
now, he's dead. the feeling is like BOMB.
sighs, nevermind me just watch.
ENJOY!(:

imagination running wild.

2009-07-24T23:02:00.003+08:00

kify's sucha meanie, i swear.
she's like putting scary images of a lady standing outside of my window, in my mind.
im like freaking out.
cos' my computer is right infront of a window.
wthwthwth,

ying and me, me and ying ♥

2009-07-21T11:48:00.002+08:00

Besties with same thoughts.♥

helloooo,
hahha, im at ying's place.
she's frigging going out soon,& im going home to be ahsam again. T.T
never go school. i didnt sleep the whole night, so decided not to go school. ^^
there's dental appointment tmr, so must keep cleaning my teeth. -.-

&& the old me is dead & gone.

i want a change.

2009-07-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

talked to the counselor today,
i didnt feel better, i dont know why,
im no longer feeling happy,
my smiles are starting to be fake ones.
i can feel that in me.
seriously i hate this feeling. i want the feeling to go away.
it's killing me already,
i use to cry with all these things,
but now, i cant. i made promise to myself.
i cant break it.

what a day.

2009-07-15T20:49:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDA LOVE♥!
15 YEARS OLD ALREADY,(:
I'm so sorry that i couldn't make it today.
thanks to my I/C.

okay, things are going quite bad for me.
it's cant be explained, my father is crazy.
he thinks that im with the bad company in school.
but then instead, i think these days, im always with those that studies.
my body is not going well for me too, im feeling tired always.
the time that i should be awake, im sleeping.
the time that i should be sleeping, im awake.
what's wrong?!
im so gonna work tomorrow, im in the financial crisis.
sighs, things are just going bad.

Tragic

2009-07-15T01:19:00.002+08:00

i lost my wallet with all the important things inside.
fuck la, what's wrong with the world.
i kept losing thing without knowing.
my schoolmates, were always there to comforting me,
i think that is the only thing that made me feel better.
everything that's inside me is falling apart,
i cant say out, i dont know why.
it's only a feeling.
went to find the counselor today,
had so much to say, but in the end, it couldnt be expressed out.
now everything is stuffed inside my heart. i have no idea why.
everything on the outside seems so well, but then on the inside,
im dying soon, im having weird visualization in my mind of me jumping off.
my mind is full of pessimistic thoughts,
you guys might not see me for long.

他不爱我

2009-07-12T23:23:00.003+08:00

♥
他不爱我
牵手的时候太冷清
拥抱的时候不够靠近
他不爱我
说话的时候不够认真
沈默的时候又太用心
我知道他不爱我
他的眼神说出他的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除得不够乾净
我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此
他还是赢走了我的心

baby, i love you. im waiting for you.

2009-07-12T20:35:00.003+08:00

too lazy to do anything.
lazy to work, study& every little thing.
i think i still like him,im just waiting for his call again.
lolol. i sound like weirdo.

i kept shopping the last 2 days,
my legs are aching like wth.
ate so much yesterday, i can still feel the bloat.
aunt bought me new shirt, gave me new bag.(:
hehehe,

& ya, suddenly thought of sec3 camp.
it's postponed due to influenza A, WTF!
i wanted the camp so much,
hearing from ong, it's been postponed to after the year end exam.
that is like so dam frigging late la!
wth, is wrong with the world?!

laughs

2009-07-11T14:54:00.002+08:00

currently at my aunt's house using computer(:
yesterday somehow ton-d with kify,ying&jean.
kify's questions for truth is like frigging scary ehhhh.
hahah, sucha fun night.
&past just makes people wanna cry.

♥Reply of tags:
Jeann:Whatever lo.
♥Yingying: haha, ya lo. i was
laughing like one kind when i saw that picture. there's another one more funny one. i post later he paiseh.
Yeehuay♥: UPDATED,LOVELY. C:

♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-07-07T19:18:00.004+08:00

nthg much to say, caught drag me to hell with yawhui.
missed him soooo muchhh,
he's going in to army so met him up.(:

♥Reply of tags:
Vanny: relinked.(:
yingying♥: lolol, at school still can browse bloggg. tsktsk. haha that pic, you also put on your blog before. haha, im putting up alr!
yanye: haha, linked ya.(:
munting:replied.
Steffi: ^^
♥agnes:hello agnes :D

♥i still like you, Alot.

youth day.

2009-07-06T10:10:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to dexter poh wee keong.(:
haha, i still remember his birthday.

NICHOLAS!!!!!

true colours.

2009-07-02T15:14:00.003+08:00

overdue pictures.

there's like nothing to blog these days.
sighs, just only this week, i didnt go school for 2 days.
the bad habit is coming back to me.

life's pretty bad for me these days.
plus the most hated period,
it's killing me with all the cramps & aches.

Shocking truth.

2009-06-28T22:21:00.004+08:00

a middle finger from bestie to you, Friend.

i saw some posts from my friend,
i saw some shocking stuff, i totally lost trust to that friend.
so ya, i dont think i'll talk to her much anymore.

school's reopening like tomorrow.
&the fight between me& bestie is over.
hehe, i dont know what really happened, but it's over.
it's good news eh >.<
it's true that after a fight, people will be in better terms.(:
i dread going to school tomorrow eh T.T
never do any homework.

it's too late.

2009-06-24T18:26:00.001+08:00

watched ghost of girlfriend's past with lovelies.(:
what a day.

lovelovelove you.(:

tattoo craving.

2009-06-24T02:23:00.002+08:00

i so wanna go malaysia,then come back to singapore.
then get the extra one week holiday.
hahahs.

i wanna get a tattoo laaa.
kify jiejie done her fourth one alr.
lolol.

Birthday wishes.

2009-06-23T01:30:00.002+08:00

im too pampered in the past,

i must learn to be strong.

i dont want them to bother me.

IDONTWANT.

shorter hair eh.(:

2009-06-22T13:09:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, i went for a new hair cut.

lol, my hair is becoming shorter and shorter.

haha.

father's day.

2009-06-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

(taken 3years ago, i used to have short hair that time, lost that father&daughter already. makes me really sad eh. :[ )

HAPPY FATHER's DAY.
did nothing today, used my first pay to buy a frigging billabong shirt.
which cost 1/3 of my pay, he looked happy to get it,
but i didnt think he appreciated it, he didnt wear it.
thinking bout it makes my wanna cry, so i'll stop(:

First pay!

2009-06-19T21:29:00.003+08:00

helloooooo,

finally finished the third day of work,

got my pay! hehehe. shopping spree here i commeee.(:

i swear i miss him & my hairrr.T.T

learning not to be scared.

2009-06-17T05:44:00.002+08:00

hello,
im like updating early in the morning. -.-
only slept for like 3hours. T.T
was worrying about being late for work.
how bad can it go seh.

yesterday, went all the way to queenstown for visiting,
it's like a frigging longgg MRT trip.
from kallang all the way to queenstown.
then after reaching the place mama&i were suppose to visit,
headed to jurong to shop.
but when we've reached there, the frigging shopping center is under reconstruction.
it's like, wth.
then no choice walked around the neighborhood shops.-.-
after that went back to meet grandma for high tea,
went to the hawker near by, guess what.
only one frigging stall is opened. i was like =.=
but then nevermind, as long as there's food.(:

went home after that,
then kify came over with yumi as usual.
around 8pm, went down to walk the dogs & smoke break@LDF.
that place is spooky as usual, but then it has nice winds & all.
we were sitting there for a while, talking away.
all of a sudden,
kify was like carrying yumi, "can we go?" she said.
i knew something was wrong i pulled moto& carried paddington.
went off running. after leaving there, kify was like saying,
she saw someone running from the deaf association towards us,
standing behind jean, i freaked out seh. was like running home praying.
mentioning it now, gives me the goosebumps.
but kify says i cannot be scared, they will come to the people that are scared.
so, i must learn to be strong.
& i also must learn to not disturb mummy anymore,
it's will make me unclean, learn to not say vulgarities&smoke.
i must kick all these habits. i MUST.

GAMBATEH SUYI!!!
i have work @ 9 have to leave home by 8.
i still have time, i think.^^
SAYO!

high on alcohol.

2009-06-14T11:42:00.008+08:00

yesterday. drank like one kind.
like finally cured the craving.(:
vanessadarling&joosheng came!
A BIG THANKS FOR JOOSHENG TREATING THE DRINKS.(:
i forgotten how much i drank, & the things that i did seems to so vague.
i think joosheng brought 8bottles of breezer&6bottles of vodka.
i swear raspberry Qvodka sucks like one kind.
had no choice but to finish it at one go, cos it's too disgusting to appreciate it.
the cola flavour one also sucked, so another bottle down.
loved the lime flavour breezer, took 2 bottles down.
then joosheng mixed vodka, tiger, lime,peach&orange.
then i drank it all up.(:
they were like screaming at me, lolol.
after finishing everything, when to skygarden to slack.(:
we were like screamming & everything. -.- too high alr.
then vanessa called tkw using my phone. -_-
like wth, lolol.
then went to hq2, pictures(:
& went home.^^

PICTURES!~~

this is not the exact amount of bottles.(:

I LOVE YOU VANESSACHANSOOHAN&DAVISANGYUANSHENG.

THE BESTEST FRIENDS I CAN EVER HAVE! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

CANT WAIT FOR 21st JUNE. ^^

HANG-OVERS SUCKED.

regretted drinking even when i reached home. Xp

you & your lies.

2009-06-12T18:24:00.000+08:00

Yeah (love is pain) dedicated to all my broken hearted people. One's old flame, just scream my name and I'm so sick of love songs. Yeah hate damn love songs. Memento of ours... Lies!

A late night and rain falling down. I bring you back from my memories. I promised myself I would be fine without you, but I can't help it. I take in liquor which I don't even know how to handle trying to fill my empty heart. A day without you is too long. I pray that I may please forget you (that's a lie).

Without you happiness cannot be found in me. I can't even shed any tears. I don't want to live anymore.

Yeah, this is my happy poopoo, it's pissing me off. I'm going crazy in thoughts of you. I want to see you, but I'm being told that I can't, that it's all over (I'll be right there).

I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I didn't know, but I know now that I need you. I'm so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I'm so sorry (I'm so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I'm so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

I dedicated my all into this song for you (other people probably don't know). By myself, without anyone knowing. (yeah, those words I said were lies). A loner left in the midst of it all. In my pocket is the breakup letter that's all wrinkled and folded up in my pocket, hey, (and my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are). I'm gonna change, I'll laugh everything off from now on.

I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I didn't know, but I know now that I need you. I'm so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I'm so sorry (I'm so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I'm so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

Oh oh oh oh oh, I hope this is all a dream. Oh oh oh oh oh, beacause I only add up to this much. Drop that babe, I still can't forget you. No I don't think I ever will, evne 'til the day I die, yeah. Did the scars I gave you heal? I'm sorry because I never got to do anything for you.

I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I didn't know, but I know now that I need you. I'm so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I'm so sorry, but I love you, it's all a lie. I'm so sorry (I'm so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I'm so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

big bang, Lies.

A battlefield.

2009-06-12T18:03:00.001+08:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like..

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for.

Struggling.

2009-06-11T23:15:00.003+08:00

im like going crazy,
over some issues here and there,
feel like shutting myself up& not caring.
just feel so frustrated. i dont know why, it's just pissing me off.
every single little bit of it.it always happen during the june holidays.
how i wished i could work, so i can just think bout earning money.
not any of the issues im worrying now. head just feel so heavy.
dont know what's wrong with the world. even mapling has troubles.
fuck la. i just hate being with my father, i wonder why didnt i support divorce at that moment.
all i can think is dying. why am i such a loser that cant do anything right,
all i did was cry when something goes wrong, had been crying for 2 days.
felt so tired of it, but if something goes wrong again, i can only cry.
sighs. what kind of shitty life i have. shitty parent, caused all that.
whatever i want i cant get, either short of cash, or it's not allowed.
what is wrong seh, i just dont get it. every single thing is started by father.
i cant go against his means, i just cant. maybe im just a coward. i dont dare.
i dare not to break a great father's heart, i cant bear to not care his thoughts.
i he just have he way through to get into my head and hit my weakness.
the most fragile part of me, i just him that way. i wonder why cant he dont care and let me go.
maybe it's his frigging ego that's causing all that, but he's nice at times.
but most of the time he's bad.
im struggling hard to get the freedom i want, the kind of life i want.
it's so hard to be a girl. so many restrictions. so much that it's gonna suffocate me.
too much, there's a huge cage around me, locking me up. with all kind of shitty thing squeezed in the cage with me. making me feeling so terrible. i fucking hate life.

I WANNA BREAK FREE,

I WANNA DIE.

So hot!

2009-06-10T23:44:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, went bugis with kify& mummy.
im proud to say that, im kify's first Sister.(:

Today, SENTOSA!
finally got to soak in the sea water,
had that craving for dont know how long.
there's nothing much to say eh.(:
pictures.(:

Emotional day.

2009-06-08T19:23:00.002+08:00

went to malaysia today,
it's like last minute eh.
sua-ed lovely peepo. SO SORRY!

watch this video. funny eh.(:

Scared, pissed, sad.

2009-06-08T00:32:00.003+08:00

i feel frigging scared currently.
i went to kify's place, accidentally kicked her house's god or smthg,
tht fell all over the place, i feel so bad.
im just feeling so awful now. i need rest.

screwed up job

2009-06-06T12:06:00.000+08:00

CCB, father dont let me go work for my uncle.
i really dotn know what's his problem.
he say it's sia suay.
sia suay your head ah, cb.

Weirdest Headaches.

2009-06-04T23:41:00.004+08:00

woke up late for work today. T.T
called uncle, he haven reach so i rushed there.
reach there, slacked my way through out.
so bored eh, i can even play RC there. -.-
stayed there till 6 plus, rushed home.
papa took home leave from hospital to see us,
so bo bian have to rush home.
reached home, felt so sick have no idea why.
so fell asleep, then woke up to check blogs,
after reading ivan's, called him. what a coincidence
he's in my territory. so went down to meet him.
in the end went riding with him and his gang to East Coast Park.
rode the whole night away.(: